First Trimester!

The sun has been glorious for the last few days. Unfortunately I missed my opportunities as I was too caught up with Joshua's birthday and our upcoming holidays. I cannot believe my boy is two now.

As I was checking my seedlings this morning, I felt as if I am pregnant! It is weird because each day, I make sure the soil wasn't too dry, take note of which seeds has grown, how much they have grown and when will I be able to transplant them to the bed! The excitement in me was overwhelming. Today I was thinking to myself the mint was kind of a disappointment as I have not seen any growth. Most of the seeds have grown apart from the spinach. I didn't expect the spinach to grow as it was just planted on 9th April.

Well back to the mint - I thought the mint was a a great disappointment. I was also beginning to show some form of favouritism towards certain vegetables and/or herbs. For a moment, I was taken aback at the thoughts I have! In my earlier blog, I likened my role of a mum to that of a gardener. Right now I have just one son but we are planning to have more children. I asked myself how can I not show favouritism to any of my children. The problem I have is I start comparing how each different seeds grow and how proud they make me feel. But this is wrong and also a dangerous line to tread upon. I know they are just seeds or vegetables but imagine, if I start comparing my children's abilities, I might indirectly hinder my children's confidence in themselves. As a parent, I should be nurturing my children and not hindering their potential. I have never expected gardening to show me a different insight to parenting.

While I toggle with those thoughts, I began to thank God for loving me for who I am. I began to appreciate God even more and am thankful I am serving an amazing God. There is so much I have to learn - to let go of things I cannot control, to love things as it is and appreciate what I have. Right now, I shall wait patiently for my mint to grow, loving it as it is now, nurturing the mint as much as I can so that it can develop its full potential.

As i promised, there will be photos. Ah...I forgot to share I got my laptop back so there will be plenty of photos! For now, happy gardening.